I shaved my hair. People do not know why I cut my long hair. They don't understand. It's a time for grieve. When I bow my head down at my Lord's feet. Time for crying. In time to regret my sins and put my mouth in the dust. Time of suffering. In time to repent of my wrong turns. It's too easy to surrender again. Throw everything up and give in. But I'm not giving up. Well, I've cheated my eyes the enough to know. It's nothing but a lie. Still these desires are there deep in my heart.
I wonder how cruel the next days will be. Such difficulty ahead. For a while I'm here. Hidden in the dark. The room is cold and the anger in my heart begins to spread. All those questions in my head. Hunger and thirst. It kills me. It seems that everything is made to drive me into madness and death. Except God, there's no reason to live for. This body is already dead; weak and naked. Nevertheless, even in death of flesh my spirit will go on. It's alive and restless until it reaches the heavens. Eternal Life is awaiting me. Fields of piece shining with grace. And no more despair.
So I stand my ground holding onto my faith. Because I know Who leads me through the Valley of Tears. And I know that not even my steps will be reminded on the desert sand. For all of my fears shall pass away, saved in His arms. Therefore, there will no longer humiliation. That's the way I resist the evil. Because I already see myself as a Winner. I can see myself delighting in victory. And my eyes do not look at the suffering cause my thoughts are concentrated on heights.
I wonder how cruel the next days will be. Such difficulty ahead. For a while I'm here. Hidden in the dark. The room is cold and the anger in my heart begins to spread. All those questions in my head. Hunger and thirst. It kills me. It seems that everything is made to drive me into madness and death. Except God, there's no reason to live for. This body is already dead; weak and naked. Nevertheless, even in death of flesh my spirit will go on. It's alive and restless until it reaches the heavens. Eternal Life is awaiting me. Fields of piece shining with grace. And no more despair.
So I stand my ground holding onto my faith. Because I know Who leads me through the Valley of Tears. And I know that not even my steps will be reminded on the desert sand. For all of my fears shall pass away, saved in His arms. Therefore, there will no longer humiliation. That's the way I resist the evil. Because I already see myself as a Winner. I can see myself delighting in victory. And my eyes do not look at the suffering cause my thoughts are concentrated on heights.
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